marilyn manson- running to the edge of the world

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

the cowards way out. (the tale of the cross country lover)



so maybe it was to soon to speak of love, but i was just in the moment and i felt like the perfect opportunity had rising for me to speak on it. But you made it so i didn't speak on it.

my brown hair has now turned white, but from old age.


by: Juan Lopez

Saturday, February 27, 2010

Psychology 202 ( second class )

after five weeks in exp 105 i am now going to my next class which is psychology 202
i think this class will be so hard for me especially since it has three papers i have to do in a format I'm not used to. also i have to make sure that i pass my English proficiency exams if i don't then i have a second chance at taking them, but you need to pass it with at least a 65% to be able to go to your next class.
i have already turned in all my work for exp 105 which included
week 4 writing assignment
week 5 discussion 1
week 5 writing assignment

and also i already turned in my personal introduction, and my first discussion for psychology 202. classes don't start till Tuesday but i want to be ahead, because this class will be kind of hard for me. i can already feel it.

and as of right now in exp 105 i have an 89.53 which i think is an A- which is okay an A is still an A. alright that is about all

(sometime next week i will be posting a new poem )

week 5 writing assignment

Juan Lopez.


The four stages of transformational learning are visioning, which requires you to recognize a problem that is significant to you, the problem at hand doesn’t have to be big or catastrophic, it can also be small and insignificant. But still a problem has to exists that has to be recognize by you, so that you can move on to step two which is acquiring and for you to do this you must come at the problem from every angle, because if you don’t a solution will be out of reach. After confronting the problem and figure the source of it and what lead you to do that decision.
You must also reflect on it which means finding a solution to your problem, think things through don’t just rush towards an answer, but take your time in finding a solution. Because if you don’t you might find yourself at another stand still. After finding a solution to your problem you are ready to move to the last step which is “doing” or integrating the problem with a solution to your life or to the situation at hand. If you don’t integrate your problem then your stuck with a problem that has been solve, and that will never see the light of day.
I remember when I was first diagnosed with diabetes it was such a roller coasted ride of emotions, at the very moment the doctor told me about my new fate, suddenly my world had change especially if I wanted to get better. I wondered who would understand me or anything that I was about to go through, would there be a single person who would know what It would be like living with the disease. I wasn’t blind about the disease I had been a nurse for years before I was told about me being diabetic, but now it was my turn to experience what it truly meant to live with diabetes. Everything I had learned through word of mouth to what I had see from other people, to even what I had read in books in nursing school was true and false at the same time.
After a couple of days of living with it, I came to realize that I wasn’t that hard, that my life was still the same, the only difference was that now I had to eat properly, exercise, and remember to take my medicine and to check my blood sugars. Other than that I was still the same person I was before I became diabetic. A week after getting in the new lifestyle I joined a diabetic support group, and that’s when I realized that no matter what I went through there was also someone who had gone through it already, there were nurses, doctors, and even everyday people who had diabetes that would help me understand every bump that I came across. Which made me feel a little bit more relieved. A weight had come off my shoulders.

Soon after joining the support group I decided that if I could live with diabetes for about two weeks then I could live with it for the rest of my life, but I know that no matter what I might encounter I always have people who truly understand what I go through.
Looking back at this situation in my life I feel that I experienced and went through stage one which is experiencing a disorientating dilemma, not only was it hard for me to understand what was going on at that time, but it was more of a shock, asking myself questions of “why” or “how could this have happened to me” and after that stage I also feel that I used the self-examination stage. Not only did I step back but I had to tell myself do I want to live with a disease that controls me, or me who controls the disease. I knew that I wasn’t going to get cured, but I knew that I had to control it so I could lead a normal life.

I also feel that I used stage four which is recognizing that others have gone through a similar process. After the initial shock, and the self-examination I remembered that I wasn’t the only one , and that there were other people. Who have gone through everything that I had already gone through, and there would be people who could help me cope, manage, and facilitate my life and that was thanks to the support group I joined. I also feel that I used stage six which is formulating a plan of action. For me that meant I had to check my blood sugars before meals and after meals, but finding a way to stick to it, also I had to make sure that I took my insulin and I also had to count every carbohydrate that I consumed, but my main focus was that I had to eat differently, I just couldn’t eat one meal a day, or even eat junk food all the time like I was so used to doing. But I had to learn another way of eating a healthier way.
After I formulated my plan of action, I reintegrated myself by remembering that I’m still alive, and letting

myself live by doing a couple of things that would help me with that, I also had to learn more about

diabetes, instead of listening to hearsay. I came to realize that as the years pass I am able to help other

people who were like me in the beginning. by reminding that they are still alive, also by reminding them to

check their blood sugars, exercising, and eating healthier. I also try to remind them that they are not the only

ones with diabetes.

week 5 discussion 1

Week 5
Discussion 1
Erickson’s life stages


Erik Erikson who developed eight psychological development stages for human life and they are as follow
Hope infancy (birth to 18 months) basic conflict of this stage is ( trust vs. Mistrust)
Will early childhood (2 to 3 years) basic conflict of this stage is ( autonomy vs. shame and doubt)
Purpose preschool (3 to 5 years) basic conflict of this stage is (initiative vs. guilt)
Competence school age (6 to 11 years) basic conflict of this stage is ( industry vs. inferiority)
Fidelity adolescence (12 to 18 years) basic conflict of this stage is ( identity vs. role confusion)
Love young adulthood (19 to 40) basic conflict of this stage is (intimacy vs. isolation)
Care middle adulthood (40 to 65) basic conflict of this stage is ( generativity vs. stagnation)
Wisdom maturity (65 to death) basic conflict of this stage is ( ego integrity vs. despair)

While reading the short paragraph and reading the chart on which the stages where located on , I knew that for some reason I was strange because I found myself identifying myself with the first and last one’s on the list , I know I’m a 29 year old young man I always thought you should be at the stage appropriate to your age , but I guess it’s not always true . And seeing the basic conflicts that each stage has I see why I haven’t been able to move from that stage , and why I feel like the other stage fits me so well .

I’ve always had trust issues , and I mean always . I tend to not trust anyone until I get to know them , then after I’ve accomplished that I open myself just a little , just enough to where they can know me better . But I still don’t open up all the way . And as for been in the wisdom stage of Erickson’s life stages . I wonder if it has anything to do with all that I’ve gone through just to get where I’m at now in my life . An to feel that I’ve accomplished some stuff , not everything that I hoped for . But maybe someday I will accomplish those things I couldn’t in the past .



by juan lopez

week 4 writing assignment

Juan Lopez.



Upon reading the Gardner’s seven intelligences theory I really don’t see myself as fitting into just one category , but I can definitely identify myself with all of them , in some way . And how could we not . Basically they might look independent but they tend to work together . Like the example that the book gave us on Gardner’s theory , “dancers excel in their art only if they have strong musical , interpersonal , and bodily-kinesthetic intelligences . “ if it wasn’t for that example I would have tried my hardest to see where I fit into Gardner’s intelligence theory . After reading this information I decided to look up on the Gardner’s theory online . And it was a little bit more mind opening . By mind opening I’m saying that by me not seeing myself in one of these seven categories , that it was okay . Because no one just excels in just one .

And no one lacks anything , we just see the picture differently . Different angles, different colors and so on .
I feel after reading this , I may excel in more than just one , more than I thought before I read this , but I still will not categorized myself with just one , I do still however strongly feel that I use all seven intelligences . Some may be stronger that others , but I still use them all . And the ones I most strongly feel that I use more are interpersonal , verbal-linguistic intrapersonal , visual-spatial , and naturalistic . Naturalistic was added by Howard Gardner in 1997 to his list on intelligences. This intelligence was not part of Gardner’s seven intelligence theory .

So to say which one I apply to my everyday life , I would have to say interpersonal , intrapersonal , verbal-linguistic , visual-spatial , and naturalistic . Because who is to say that we will not function properly if we choose just one , or if we choose to apply just one to our lives . The mind fluctuates all the time and so must intelligence .

References : http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Theory_of_multiple_intelligences I used this link to further my knowledge on Howard Gardner and his theory on multiple intelligences .

Friday, February 19, 2010

Do a Random Act of Kindness!

i was reading a post on craigslist and the title said Do a random act of kindness because you can get money in return . i don't know a lot but aren't we supposed to do good things everyday without expecting anything in return . so why should i do something like give a bag of food to my church or to any food ministry that is out there , just so i can get a ten dollar gift certificate . i was thought at an early age that when ever you did something from the bottom of your heart , you shouldn't expect anything in return .

i wonder what has happened from when i was a young boy , to now . have our ways of thinking changed so much that we have to ask for something in return when we do our good deed. i hope not .

if you do a good deed don't ask for nothing in return , not even a thank you . do it because you know its the right thing to do , its what GOD wants you to do .

 

Do a Random Act of Kindness!

Tip of the day : sure everyone can use a helping hand , but the best way to help someone is not individual help , but to help out the whole community . so that everyone can get help . individual attention comes after everyone has been helped .

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

EXP105: Personal Dimensions of Education (ABA1005K)

 

i recently posted my last assignment for week 5 I’m no that that confident that i will past my class with an A+ , but if i don’t life will still keep going on . as of right now i have a B+ and that’s with all my work that has been graded which include the following

week 1 introduction ,discussion 1and 2

week 2 discussion 1and 2, writing exercise

week 3 discussion 1and 2

week 4 still waiting to be graded ( but i posted two discussions and one written assignment )

I’m almost done with exp105 and i will be starting psy202 soon i hope i will be able to keep up with the other . i already started reading the required reading material so i can just start my discussion post as soon as i begin with my classes .